What a day..

So today was Hallie's surgery day. After 2 ENT visits, several conversations with our amazing pediatrician, and 2 sleep studies I finally was convinced it was ok to put my baby under and get her tonsils and adnoids (still not really sure what those are..) removed. She's been gasping at night and I guess her oxygen level dropped to 73% while she slept, NOT a good thing. I've been so nervous for the past couple of weeks while we waited then last night Hayden gave her a blessing and I felt better... that is until we got into the hospital at 6:30 this morning. The nerves kicked in and I apparently was like a mama bear protecting her young. Hayden works in the OR and has wonderful friends there who took extra time and care with us. I however apparently had daggers for any health care person who may possibly give my child any sort of pain... (Sorry friends :) )

Hallie was the bravest little girl in the world. They pricked her finger and she sat still. They squeezed out the blood and she sat still. We walked into the room and chatted, yup she was fine. But as soon as she need to change out of her beloved piggy jammies all Hades broke loose. Luckily they let her keep them on and bi-pass the hospital ones.

The next broken heart was when they had to take her to surgery.. I dreaded that from the get go. She doesn't go to nursery she doesn't go to grandparents very well still so you can imagine... Luckily Hayden got to take her back, yes she still screamed for me with out-streched arms and crocodile tears. I smiled and said I would see her soon, they turned the corner and I broke down. I can't even type this from remembering, I think I'm the biggest wimp in the world, but WOW that was hard. I'm just SOOOO grateful Hayden got to take her. When he got back to the room he said she was fine after she turned the corner so that helped me calm down. I guess he got to hold her and give her the oxygen mask with the anesthesia medicine in it until she fell asleep. The anesthesiologist commented on how she seemed to have a hard time breathing and Hayden said that was the problem, she gasped and couldn't breath at night. The anesthesiologist said he had to give her "positive pressure" to basically force some air down the tube in her throat to help her get the oxygen she needed.

The surgery took about 15 -20 minutes. Hayden snuck out to check on some things and our friend texted to say that Hallie was out of surgery. I was kinda freaking out because I didn't know where Hayden was! Then a scrub nurse friend that was in the surgery came in to show me Hallie's tonsils.... they were HUGE, about the size of a black walnut!! She said that Hallie's tonsils were a good size for an adult! Thank goodness we got them out! It was so nice to know we did the right thing, especially since she was fine. The nurse also said she saw Hayden, he was with Hallie in recovery. A couple of minutes later he carried her into the room, tear stained and disoriented. She kept complaining of hurting and having ouchie's. That was the worst. We had to give her medicine and of course my tears were a-flowin. I simply can't handle Hallie having any kind of pain. I had no idea that the IV was so painful too, she REALLY hated having it in. We finally got to go home though and she calmed down a little.

So our day has consisted of convincing her to take a drink ever couple of minutes, crying through medicine, mickey mouse clubhouse and princess movies, and a million popsicles. She's also been a complete mama's girl and doesn't ever want me to leave the room. I get to just hold her and giver her kisses, I'm kinda loving that part. :) I just like knowing I can comfort her when she needs it. Hayden's been awesome; running around getting popsicles and different blankets and animals that she wants. He's truly so amazing and we're so lucky he's ours :) We're all pretty worn out, but I'm so happy we did the surgery.

Cute/Sad stuff - "Mommy why was I sick?" ie why did you take me to the doctor, I felt fine!
"I'm full of movies" -yes that was several hours of the day
Tight Tight hug - "mommy, I love you.... SO much!"
"Mommy I need a snuggle." Then she pulled me over on to her and held on for dear life. (she laid down the whole day minus 10 minutes of thinking she was better after the medicine kicked in and then she crashed)
"that medicine makes me tired and a little bit sad. And then I feel better and it makes me all worn out."
"mommy when you were a little girl did you take medicine like that kind?" ME - "ya, sweetie" Hallie - "was it ok or was it pretty yucky... mine is pretty yucky."

She's gotten a lot better as the day has gone on and is thankfully asleep now...I have to keep checking on that fact though because the usual snores and gasps are no longer!!! She's so QUIET! Yup to add to the wimpy I'm sleeping on the floor next to her tonight. Her pain medication will run out around 4 am and I need to be there..

We also planned on taking a picture with her doctors and the room and a picture of the tonsils to make a scrapbook page of it all..., but we were way too stressed and anxious and didn't even think about the camera. Oh well.

Also thanks to everyone for your prayers and concern, she's one lucky girl to have ya'll. We had completely forgotten to eat all day and had amazing friends bring a delicious dinner (thanks Nat!)